Drama chasing

Been watching this for the past hours. Had a good laugh watching retarded da lang with the mushroom head he is wearing and his jagged chin. And i didn't know da lang was pink panther's best friend. U can never guess why unless u watch this. A pity that the person only uploaded till episode 4. blah. ;)

loves smelly much. (:

Hello world :D

Exams over. Been to Thailand and back. :D I have 1.5 mths of holidays before hitting the books again. Srsly gotta sit down and plan on how to spend it wisely. other than the commitments i have on hand; namely vertical marathon event planning, gesl and inter hall games, i should be able to set aside 0.5mths for my loved ones. i hope smelly can quickly finish his paper and not worry so much abt them. can tell that he had put in much hard work and he deserve to perform well. just a lil luck lacking i guess. shall transfer all my luck to him till Saturday. ;) have been sleeping my way through since i came back. the crazy shoppings have worn me out. chatuchak and platinum mall are paradise for cheap buys. my buying power has instantly heightened by 10 times compared to expensive SG malls. went there with a small school bag and return with a 10kg bag. you know those u bought from thailand with cute imprints of cartoons. i just threw all my buys in and off i go. it is amazingly sturdy and trusty. planning to go bkk again next year. prolly ask my besties and sisters along. :)

Back on track

For those who read and care.

Thanks for all the encouragement. (:

Everything's great again.

All i need is a lil more faith in the things i do.

To trust me & everyone around me.

Annoying

It's 3.33am now.

I can't get down to work.

The thought of the 1yr10mths relationship that is being put to a full stop keeps me crying most of the time. 

I'm having project meeting at 12.30pm tomorrow and i have two unfinished individual project to be submitted next week too. Fucked up. No sleep tonight.

:(

Snail mail

I saw the email he sent me.

Tears rolled down my cheek as i read.

My take is that the short break which he thinks would be beneficial to us would turn into a long one and eventually a final break up.

Why the fear?

Because he, the one who is supposed to be there when i needed most is not there. Because, till then, he would not be the one i turn to again. Because, it seem that he can't make time for me but the things he want to do which is equivalent to I AM NO LONGER IMPORTANT in his life. I know this is not what he intended. Just that, i can no longer stand being the giver. I am tired. If you want to stand on his side and defend for him saying i was like that before, sorry, i can only apologise and regret on what has happened before and fall into a disappointed slum.

Whatever happens to the guy who showered all his attention on me? The guy who finds my blog even if it is a really private one? The guy who sends me comfort messages whenever he read that i am upset? The guy who flooded the entire text message with 100 ilu-s and other sweet messages every now and then to bring smiles on my face.  The guy who waits for me for 4hours. The guy who waited for 8 years to get into this relationship? (I am not sure about this part, but i hope that he has waited for me since primary six. How romantic right.) The reason why i wana be with him because he is a simple guy who loves me with all his heart. Forget about the simple part, i can no longer feel the love. I cannot bring myself to stay in this relationship. I shall not hold on to this wistful thought; he comes along with fate any longer. 

I miss the 'him' in the past.

The 'lost' time cannot be retrieved... 

I messed up.

To make things simpler, i take it as it has ended.

Never felt more singular.

There,

I am alone again.

Sitting in front of the huge television hoping for some comedy, but whatever showing are the very last thing i wana see.

Secret- the film we caught on our first date.
Sex and the City- okay?
License to Wed- again? the second time i'm watching in two days.
Featuring all the good man on earth.

Yay, i'm green in envy.
Would the perfect guy please stand up?

Hell, i'm drowning myself in a pile of sorrow shit again.

Heisnothinghemeansnothingheisnothingi'llbeokayi'mfinei'mstrongerthanwhatithink

Instantly, back on my feet again.

This is it.

I realised it's no longer because of my once a mthly issue.

It's because of the same problem, negligence.

Nobody is willing to take a step back. 

I guess it just started out at the wrong time.

The next time i look for a boyfriend, 

i wana date someone who is older and more mature so that he can take my willfulness. O yar, sends me flowers without me passing him hintsx1000.

It ended.

Tough but sure.

Could only swallow everything harsh on the receiving end

This is how you perceive me as...

Do things without thinking of consequences.

Expect to get whatever that is requested for.

Spoilt.

Weird.

Undeniably true.

You should have known i'm such brat the first time you meet me.

I've mellowed down a lot after all these while.

You should have recognised that too. 

I'm puzzled sometimes, cos i've fallen head over heels for you and i can't help but wanted to be involve in everything you do, to know more about you so that i know how to care for you. You're on my mind every minute and second. My friends can vouch for me. I've always mention you in front of them at the risk of  getting them irritated and start forming hate club. Goes to show how much you preoccupy my mind. I get angry when you shove me aside with something else you deem more important. Have you forgotten your number one you used to place. I understand that school should be your priority, but can you at least let me come in second? I felt i'm of least importance to you now.

Can you measure love with a ruler?

I think it's quite sad if you rationalise love.

I'll rather everyone turn into robots. period.

What an ONEyrTENmths

Baby, nobody has beaten this record thus far. 

You've made ur mark!!! :D 

The following song is a major love, and part of this number speaks my mind- 

Always be my baby, featuring David Cook/Mariah Carey. [I'll prefer Cook's (:]

We were as one babe

For a moment in time

And it seemed everlasting

That you would always be mine

Now you want to be free

So I'm letting you fly

'Cause i know in my heart  babe

Our love will never die, nooo

You'll always be a part of me

I'm part of you indefinitely

Boy don't you know you can't escape me

Ooh darling, 'cause you'll always be my baby

And we'll linger on

Time can't erase a feeling this strong

No way you're never gonna shake me

Ooh darling, 'cause you'll always be my baby

I ain't gonna cry no

And i won't beg you to stay

If you're determined to leave boy

I will not stand in your way

But inevitably you'll be back again

'Cause you know in your heart babe

Our love will never end no

You'll always be a part of me

I'm part of you indefinitely

Boy don't you know you can't escape me

Ooh darling, 'cause you'll always be my baby

And we'll linger on

Time can't erase a feeling this strong

No way you're never gonna shake me

Ooh darling, 'cause you'll always be my baby

I know that you'll be back boy

When your days and your night get a little bit colder

I know that you'll be back baby

Ooh baby believe me it's only a matter of time 

You'll always be a part of me

I'm part of you indefinitely

Boy don't you know you can't escape me

Ooh darling 'cause you'll always be my baby

And we'll linger on

Time can't erase a feeling this strong

No way you're never gonna shake me

Ooh darling, 'cause you'll always be my baby

Ohana Love.

Sweet little meetings like that always make me a happy girl.

Met up with dajie, erjie, their partners and baby yesterday. Late as usual. But baby came even later. Suddenly felt a sense of purpose as passerby who are lost walk up to me to ask for direction, two in 10 minutes while i was waiting for baby. I have to admit that i have a seemingly helpful face, but half the time i don't know whether the help i rendered is helpful or not. Hahahs. Not very smart in directions. And i chided baby for being late, much for my pleasure. (x I shall be early starting from now. Wana be the one who's scolding and not be the one at the receiving end.. Muahaha. 

Racist me had a scary thought. I believe that the chinese is slowly turning into the minority group. What i witnessed further proven my thought. The black crowds on train yesterday was horridly huge. I srsly think they have been hiding in some dark corner of Singapore after swimming here. Managed to escape the coastguard with much luck. And now they finally have the chance to celebrate their festival without getting suspicious because it is their festival and they do like to go out in large groups, so they happily took the public transport ignoring the fact that they have no passports. They enjoy stinking the locals to death in the hope to dominate Singapore in an eventual event. It is seriously horrifying. I have never once seen so many of them on the train before. Swarming through the door of the train as i shudder. -This is just one of my many oblique thoughts, a disgustingly racist moment.

Caught up with siblings at Marina Square's Dian Xiao Er. The two of us took a long time looking for the place as we are street dumb. My tummy was grumbling badly but i enjoyed bumping around with baby. Finally reached and three quarter of the goodie foodie was long swallowed down into the stomach of the people there. Whatever left is the "chap". Baby was contented with it and he gobbled down two bowls of rice. We ordered another dish, Mongolian ribs, it was awesome. Had a great time playing this geography game initiated by Yisheng. It really brought my knowledge on the capitals of countries to a test. I am no good at all. Received penalty all the time. The legendary yisheng-flick-on-the-knuckles/nails is nightmare. Whoever knows the capital of Istabul is a genius, provided you give me the answer right at your finger tips. Played with chinese idioms as well. It was a laughter-filled evening.

Desert at Ji De Chi after that and HOME.

I was a happy girl ytd. :D

Frolicking

"Time you enjoyed wasting, was not wasted" (john lennon), quote my friend Luo Er.

Totallehh.

This is a game of CON-CEN-TRA-TION

Wow, i need loadsa tt.

It is a skill hardly anyone can master, i say.

Supposedly to be projects slaughtering in the room, ended up joining the merry mid autumn festival downstairs.

Coolios to the performance.

Now i have a pile of shit to clear and my eyelids are getting heavy.


Lets play the game of concentration, will you. (:

Picnic till dusk

Good Morning World

Been watching these 4 flicks on my lazy Sunday afternoon. I know u must be thinking what about Quest of the grotesque pile of workshit? 

I have shoved it aside for a teeny while just to relax my muscles for a tough war later. Had done quite a bit of constructive work still and i'd paced myself right to face the coming school week. Not too bad.

 

Back to the 4 shows. 

Had fun laughing whilst watching vintage The Gods Must be Crazy 1 & 2. As funny as it looks, it's meaningful. Sort of envied the bushman's simple lifestyle for a while. I pondered on their simplicity and innocent mind. They live in a world on their own yet they can be the happiest souls on earth. The only thing they are equip with is their physical bow and arrow that's all. They enjoy peaceful living, everyone of them have a heart of gold. Don't know how true is that but i believe what i see inthe show. :D  

Forgetting Sarah Marshall shows much much nudity and sensual scenes. I had to lower the volume and switch off my monitor every time mum walks pass. Watched with my sister can, i know what's in your filthy mind. Just that it's kinda weird to watch show with sexual content when parents are there. Sensitive ground. Plus the computer is in the living room, we don't really have a choice. The show itself is okay.

I  just caught The Ugly Truth in cinema with Sher. It was an awesome show which hold much truth to it. It goes to show how jerk guys are. However, no matter how dirty their thought is, they will change for the girl they fall head over heels with eventually. Comforting hur. Downloaded and caught it again cos i really love the show. (: Find Katherin Haigl very glam.

Hello pile of workshit...

Out.

QUEST of the Grotesque pile of workshit

While i was bathing, my mind wandered to the pile of unfinished work. Suddenly, a state of intense uneasiness overwhelmed me. I have been having the time of my life in NIE until they announce all projects to be due on November. My whole happy world came crashing down. No more play. Work all day. The worst have yet to come. Truth is, i have not been doing my work faithfully. Now that projects have turned us into busy bees, i have no time to revise. Tests & exams are sandwiched between project due dates. Have i suffocated you with all those?

Well.

Let me introduce you...

Quest of the Grotesque pile of workshit.

Quest enquires:-

1) Precise time management and absolutely no procrastination. In short, always on the ball.

2) Stay calm. I have to kill one enemy at a time so that i will not panic in front of the troop of enemies.

3) Must win.



Time period:

Until the end of November. Can expect an awesome holiday after conquering the quest. Definately something i am looking forward to, a whole load.

First and foremost:

1) (admin) Print notes, mc, leave appl

2) Search songs for old folks. (Check out gesl wiki webbie)

3) Find case study for DED 100 and do indv part

4) Reconstruction on DED 103

5) Read up on GRP projs for ded 103 & 107

6) Inform DED 103 groupmates to meet on tue.

With that, my mind's settled.
KILL with no mercy!

At 3.59am

Immediately after GJB was born, i was prompted to post something here. Not that i was pushed to do it, fyi, i have never like to be told to do something i don't enjoy.

However, I think i should do something for GJB by showing how delighted i am for her birth.

:D :D :D

At least when i have GJB, i can whine all i want w/o being tell off as a nuisance.

It's a breath of new air for me. I don't care if i'm using the wrong vocab, grammar or no subject verb agreement or my ideas don't link. Cos dude, i rattle whatever i want here. GJB is someone who won't turn her back against me; my eternal friend. Unless, of course, my com breaks down.

At 3.59am, i should be deep in sleep. If not, i should busy myself with the piling work. I feel the stress inside out, but still not motivated. Weird.

P.s: I have not showered. I hear you say ewwww. Aye aye. I am going to shower not because of you but i really do think i stink.

Out.